Be it late or very late, I caught Step Up 2. Oh my goodness! It's fantabulous. The play held in NIE's Playhouse was good too! Especially Joseph. His acting skills were awesome. Hahahaa. Anyway, the actors and actresses made me feel like joining them.

I miss drama. But then again, I'm a sucker when it comes to memorising lines. :)

I want to shit, I need to attend piano lesson, I need to dash out of my house to go back to school with my happy-preppy friends!!!!!

Stupid Jean. When will you ever not be emo??????????????????

It is really sickening to see that in channel 8, the 7pm drama serial shows the presence of an adulterer in the relationship between Felicia Chin and the guy. In the 9pm drama serial, Zoe Tay and her husband. On channel U, 10pm, adultery between the lawyers. I mean it's like ain't life not filled with enough uncertainties already? To the extent whereby the only certainty is the presence of uncertainty.

I just came out of my craziness in my relationship. My paranoia and excessive insecurities. Sometimes, at the darkness moments, these demons still come tickling my heart, tormenting me. But I shrug them away before they wreck havoc like before. I feel free now. I like capable of being alone. I feel it's okay to not meet up. It's okay to not see him. It's okay that he doesnt miss me. It's okay that he no longer says I Love You. It's all okay now. But why? Why is it okay? Have I become numb towards all these or what? Is it emptiness? Is it because I no longer expect? I don't know. But I'm okay.

Work is busy, work is stressful. It is even alright to vent your fustrations on me. At times I wonder why you always sound so happy on days that you are not meeting me. Is it because I give you time to be with other people that can make you happy? Or is it that the sight of me disgusts you?

No problem has arised between me and him so far. And I have been spending time with my family, which is really relaxing and less stressful.

But, Vithya, my friend, be strong. I don't know what I can say to you. I know that I must let you know that it is easy to fall into depression and rely on Prozac for endorphins. But how sure can one be that one can ever come out of depression? So, don't ever let yourself fall into it. Relationships are always so vulnerable. There's nothing you can do about it. It's time to stop fantasizing that relationships can survive storms like what my parents enjoy, like those of your parents too! Look, look at what the media has to say... successful relationships can hardly be found. But brace up.

The lump that is on my neck one week ago is still on my neck now. It is still causing pain, distress and these amount to total discomfort. The fever has gone but only after I've ran out of paracetamol. Mom says I should go to the polyclinic so in case there's a referral for X-ray taking, it'd be cheaper than a referral issued by a GP.

Besides, there's another lump growing on top of the bigger lump. I found out yesterday.

And so, our beloved Yijun's back from France. Finally. And I'm down with this irritating fever that is taking sleep away from me. Introducing this whole new phenomena of insomnia, not induced by stress but induced by bacteria.

I abhor planning the timetable. I loathe registering for modules. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop all the clashings!!! It's deafening.

All the courses are so interesting. I have so many that I want to take but because of the clashes and everything, it comes down to only this few and it makes me very sad!!! I can't take all!!!

in fact

I think I prefer people to be meticulous and careful rather than being impulsive when deciding on matters that are of a certain level of importance. But, I've made an astonishing discovery recently. I am rather attracted to people who act on impulse.

I remembered, we quarrelled the night before and I was being rebellious so I didn't give two hoots. He went to station to collect some award then called me and asked if I want to go with him to the car showroom. I went of course. We walked out of the showroom with a new car.

Everything happened so fast.

euro cup

I went to mohammed sultan to watch the euro championship with Angela yesterday. It was hilarious as the place was already full house, we had to sit on the concrete slabs of the fountain in front of the Singapore Repertory Theatre. It was damp. Over Hoegarden, we watched the match and were looking at this lady/auntie. Her behaviour was... oh my god. It got us laughing like mad.

The same old question

I believe happiness is always spoken in relativity but don't we almost as often enough, forget about this fact? I bruise easily and that's why I'm a crybaby. I am least ashamed that I am one because I am constantly hoping to be someone's crybaby. Someone to be there for me when I cry. Just because I am a crybaby, happiness comes to me relatively easily. I can get satisfied easily only because I get upset as easily. When one is very depressed, all it takes is something small to feel a tinge of happiness. But when one is overwhelmed by happiness, the shadows of unhappiness lurks, reminding you that nothing is forever, as cliched as it may be, but nevertheless true. Then again, it is the presence of these shadows of the dark that tell you that in comparison, you are happy.

My writing is somehow incoherent but it's very coherent in my mind or rather heart.

Spain won!

Tuition $400 per month. I am coming...

I wonder why I am not studying when I am supposed to be. I can't wait for tomorrow's paper. I need to finish this. I need to truly have a holiday. I need to drink till I drop. I need to learn not to be so bothered by Edmund. I ought to learn that he does not need me. Why do I not learn after all this time?

'The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain.'
---Lord Byron

ARGH

How in the world can Italy be thrashed???
Hubby says he'll cover my losses. :)
I'll not let him though.

Let's hope that Italy wins tonight.

constance's birthday

And so, instead of the ice-skating and k-boxing, it came down to this semi-insane run-about around town in search for clues from one destination to another.

First, she'll have to collect her present from Hyatt Hotel. Then, ... the fun begins.

This was slipped into a book titled Naughty Little Nigel. How appropriate. I do have very brillant friends!!!

Let Constance have her favourite drink first.

Proceed for Sex and the City, satisfying the fashion lover

The overhaul


Because I am the dinner coordinator or so what Yijun says, Winini and I reached Fish and Co. first after buying the cake and was eager chasing Veron and Joseph to hurry before the birthday girl arrives.

The third person who arrived. Veron came before Joseph. Our dear Joseph was late to the point where he met the birthday girl outside Fish and Co. And how he reacted was totally hilarious.

Here goes the non-stop chatting and catching up...



And when you think Angela would just stop there, she brought the Burger King crown for the birthday girl


Yijun's preparation to sing on stage for Constance. Yesterday Once More.

The show begins...


And the Fish and Co. birthday song, with the Hoo-Haahs.


The cake.


Constance's new found friend, "got money"

He was invited our to have some of our cake. Actually the real reason is that we won't be able to finish the cake.

But then, Constance was invited over the next moment to share his cake. And there, we had another half side of the cake which Constance brought home.

The group pic.

Cute friends




Though we didn't have our Pina Colada, Yijun had the effect?

The fun continues





I know we love each other and that everyone is in the picture are crazy but so is the photographer!



Need I say more?

What's going to happen after this? He turns out to be a meanie. But they do really look happy.

before the 30mins is up

I am waiting for the release of my results. And my whole family is waiting for it with me. It's madness. Last semester, I was going to bed and got reminded by it and woke up with everyone else sleeping and checked my results.

It's still exciting as ever but there seem to be no place to fall on after the release.

I don't know what I am talking about.

nothing much, just can't seem to get going

Club Chinois's food was not bad. Went there to celebrate grandma's 87th birthday. I wonder what's there to be happy about other than the food.

Went to funeral wake yesterday. Bad food packed with bastards.

I want to study today. I can't seem to get to it. All I did was watch Curse of the Golden Flower. With the weather and all, I want to head to bed with my book and a cup of hot chocolate. I wouldn't mind Edmund's presence. :) Unfortunately it's totally not possible. Heeh. Nevermind. Make do.

And so we meet again and we went to have sushi for dinner!







Yijun's cake at the foregrounf and Angela's at the back. They all had the same cake, except me. After all the drama that Cafe Cartel has brought to us at 9pm sharp.

Constance's ugly cake

Winini's

And this is mine.





I dont know what we were doing man.







Constance's left-over cake with a trail of cheese falling behind.


These were the remaining pictures of the primary school outing that I've successfully copied and pasted from Michelle's blog. :)